Well, Operation Homefront has accepted my application. They'll be contacting me today about ways I can volunteer. I'm hoping that, rather than do specialized work, since I can't do car repair, appliance repair, and I have no furniture to donate, I can instead just help some Army Wives with work around the house, children, etc...but, I'll talk to the manager about it. Anyway, I've been looking at apartments in my old town, where my high school is at. So far I have found...nada. Fuck the world. -____- the town is so expensive. There are flats upwards of 500-2000 dollars a WEEK. Uh...I can't afford that. I can't even afford 500. 400, maybe. All I really want is one room and a bathroom. I don't even need a kitchen...just enough space for a television, fridge and a microwave...is that too much to ask for? Apparently, yeah. Ugh. Whatever.

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I just spoke to my brother today. He's in the Navy, by the way. He tried to hack it in college, but he couldn't get himself together. :/ So, the cliche misfit young adult thing to do, since the "run away to the circus" plan didn't work, was join the military! Yeah!
He had some good advice, though. He wants me to attend at least one year of college before joining the Peace Corps...but...I don't know. I don't see how it would make much of a difference. A four year college degree is a recommended qualification, but I do not want to attend four years of college before joining. So I know that no matter what, I will end up going into the Peace Corps whether I attend college for one year first or not. : / But we shall see. It's a catch 22, or as my mother always says (seriously, ALWAYS.) "It's six one way, half a dozen the other!" I can actually hear her voice in my head right now.
Anyway, onto more immediate plans...
I have signed up for "Operation Homefront," against my brothers wishes. He's actually pretty anti-American. The hell? That makes so much sense, hate America but join the Navy...And anyway, I'm not even doing it because it's "ameracun." I'm interested in it because first of all, it isn't associated with a church, and second of all, it HELPS PEOPLE IN NEED. I don't give a flying fuck if it's connected to the military.
Trying to find some other shit to do before my surgeries at the end of next month. That's going to hurt like a bitch, so I can't do much after wards. (Fuck my life...) Trying to find jobs, things to do, people to see, bleh bleh bleh, but It's hard to find things in Texas that aren't all about Jesus.
Seriously, people, can we please get off the whole Jesus thing? It's so 1800's. Let us all move on, as a society. Religion is seriously fucking everything up. And get off your high horse about the "it makes you a better person!!!" shit. If you're a good person, you're a good person. It has no dependency on your religion...except, if you have a religion, you might pretend to be a good person because hell scares the shit out of you. I know plenty of atheists who are very concerned for others, including myself. And in turn, I know plenty of Christians who don't give a rats ass about others. So there.

Volunteering.

Two posts in one day. :D I'm just so excited that I've started writing about something other than losing weight. I am still 160, by the way, but at least now I know why.
Well, I am thinking about joining the Peace Corps after high school. I have already looked up all of the information, and it looks perfect for me. The website described a volunteer as somebody who is "patient, flexible, and kind," and who wants to "help others and connect with other cultures." Which is a pretty good description of me- at least, the new me! I have been smiling so much more recently and I've been much more social and caring- in fact, a couple of my friends joke around that I am their mom because I've become so concerned with their well being. It just seems to me that I would be perfect for the Corps. Plus, that's just one more experience to say I had!
Done with that chatter about what's going to happen a year from now- I'm more concerned with what will happen a month from now. I want to go to the gulf to help clean animals who got screwed over in the spill. I'm not sure if they will let me, since I am only seventeen, but I am still trying to find a group or an organization that I can sign up with. Even if I can't go all the way to Florida, Louisiana, or any of those other states, I can still help out here in the city I'm in- I'm looking up the women's shelter and Habitat for Humanity to find some stuff to do over the summer. On top of that, I'm getting scar revision and I'm going to Portland to check out my college! Whew! Busy summer. But I think that in the end, it'll be worth it.
Anyway, farewell. Knowing me I'll probably be writing another entry not to long from now. :D

I am so ready!

Okay, my one follower, a lot of shit has gone down since I last wrote. I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism (secondary, for those who know their lingo.) Which explains the weight, the misery, the fatigue, everything! I started my hormones approximately one week ago, and I already see a huge improvement. That just goes to show, don't ignore symptoms and don't let doctors blow you off!
Anyway, I'm turning this blog from weight loss to something more important; My life. Now that I'm not depressed, I have already made many plans for the future.
I'm going into senior year of high school, and I am also hoping to get a job at Walgreens after school. Why Walgreens? Well, I've thought about it. Walgreens has always been there, for as long as I can remember. When my grandmother was dying and cussing my mom out, there was a Walgreens down the street to provide cheap, good food and products. When I got into wearing make up, the first place I went was Walgreens. When I was in a car accident, my mom would go to Walgreens all the time to get things. It's a very strange thing to be nostalgic about. But Walgreens is always there, never changing. The clean lineoleum flooring, the mirrors along the back end of the wall, the rows and rows of products...it's so homey, eh? all in a tiny little store, almost like a family owned establishment...that has a bit of a funny pharmaceutical odor... On top of all that, you are on your feet your whole shift, so that is a DEFINITE PLUS for me!
So, job, school...now home! We are moving back into the house I lived in when I first moved to this city, but we are remodeling it, so it is going to be completely different. Unfortunately, that is out of my school district, so I am planning on renting an apartment in the district so I can go there with my senior class. So, I'll have a job, a car, and an apartment! Awesome! I'm so ready for life.
Don't you love us hopeful young folk?

I'm at a standstill of 160 lbs. A couple of days ago, I was 159.2 but that was only for a bit. I've been exercising and moving around all the time, so hopefully that'll have an effect. I'm riding the bike, too, so hopefully I'll see the effects in a couple of days.

Lost 1 lb. :D I went from 161.6 to 160.0. I'm doing some abdominal pilates every morning and every night as well as exercising on the bike and at the gym.

Exercise.

Tired...I haven't posted in a long time. I'm not eating 1500 calories a day any more because, rather than allowing me to lose weight, it just maintained my weight.
Which...you know...I want to lose weight...So I'm back to eating 1200 calories a day, but I am also exercising every day. I go to the gym and work out for about an hour, or I stay home and use the stationary bike. I've already lost 5 lbs, which is probably water weight, but that doesn't matter much to me, as long as I lose it, right?
I'm finally under 160 after the holidays...thank god! I want to be 155 or less by the end of March. I'm losing the weight so much faster now that I've begun exercising.
NO MATTER WHAT ANYBODY SAYS...EXERCISE IS IMPORTANT TO LOSING WEIGHT!
I am really sick of those people who say "OMG I LOST TEH WAIT WITOUT TEH EXERCIZEZ!" You have to exercise to lose weight and get healthy, or else the weight loss is just a temporary thing and you'll gain it all back. I

Okay, I haven't posted on here in awhile...again!
I just wanna say, I gained a lot of weight over the holidays. I'm not making up excuses, but I was depressed, stressed out because of our monetary situation, and food was everywhere...
Strange thing is, I put on the weight, but not the inches. I'm still a size ten!
Isn't that weird? I tried putting on my size twelves, since I figured they'd fit, but they are way too big.
Anywhoo, I'm trying to lose 5 lbs by valentines day. I've already lost four. I hope I'm 160 by v day. I'm being stricter about my dieting, too. I haven't binged since New Years eve! Yay! That may have to do with the fact that I am now eating 1,500 calories a day, which allows me to eat a pretty balanced and nutritional diet. I've been trying to excercise, but I am sooo lazy. I decided, however, to go for a 30-min walk after dinner everyday, to help out my metabolism and give my dog some excercise, tambien.
I want to be able to go for a "daily run!" That's my fitness goal.
My weight goal still stands at 132 lbs.
First, I have to find a proper sports bra to really hold down these DD's...

Okay, I haven't update in a while because, quite frankly, I felt like giving up. Over the holidays, I did a lot of emotional over eating, and I gained quite a bit of weight back. It's really frustrating. I want to lose 5 lbs by Valentines day, though, and so I figured I would update my blog to help me. I have lost 1 lb in 1 week so far, so if I stay on this trend, I should reach my short term goal of 1 lb in 1 month.

I've been maintaining a weight of 156 lbs. I really wanted to be 150 by my birthday, but, alas, I fell into a cycle of binging. Look on the bright side, though; at least I didn't gain any weight. I'd really like to be at least 154 lbs. by my birthday, but I won't make myself too upset about it.
I can't let myself "splurge" any more. I can't eat anything as a reward any more; I've realized that leads to binging. (Soon enough, huh?) I mean, I think I'll have a cookie or two every now and then, but I'm not going to eat the whole box. I'm going to try.
I need to be stricter with my eating.

UGGGH. The weekend binge happened again! But this time it was Halloween, so that meant a lot of candy. FML. I'm getting sort of tired of these binging and fasting thing. It's sort of annoying. I think I'm going to skip the fasting thing because I can't keep doing this. I can't keep justifying my binges by fasting; and anyway, it's really unhealthy.