Well, I'm 156 lbs. :( Ugh. 6 lbs...gross...
I'm going to restrict again for a couple of weeks to lose weight. Let's hope it works.

Haven't been on in a while, but I thought I'd drop a line.
I haven't been able to lose any weight, getting sort of frustrated. But I HAVE been eating a bit too much ice cream so....I guess I just have to eat stricter to lose a few lbs.
Things are getting sort of crazy. Galen and I got in a fight the other day, and we almost broke up...emphasis on almost. But he's still too far away from me, and I don't get to see him. Ever. Fuck.
There's a girl I'm interested in too. Her name is bailey, and she's very fun. And I want to have fun. But I don't want to hurt her, because I don't really want a relationship....I just want somebody to hang out with, make out with, cuddle with...I guess a friends-with-benefits relationship. :P I somehow don't think Galen will agree with this. Bailey is friends with my friends who are friends with Galen...so Galen will certainly find out from somebody if Bailey doesn't keep her mouth shut. Ahh...well....

South Beach Diet and 153 lbs.

153 lbs. Bleh. That's alright since the other day I was 155 lbs...so I guess 153 is good. I've officially started Phase 1 of the south beach diet, and I'm already glad that I signed up for it online. I already feel grateful for the support that the website gives, even though I haven't even been on the diet for one day. I can't wait to see the weight loss...hopefully, with a little bit of structure and support, the weight will come off this time around!
Also, I've started taking a fat burning supplement- it's just caffiene and ephedra, so it doesn't seem that awful.

SIGGGGGHHHH! Well, ladies. I've been eating 2,000 calories a day and exercising. You know, being normal. It's okay...I gained a  few lbs., unfortunately, and now I'm 155 lbs! Dammit! BUT it's okay, because this has happened before and I always lost it. I'm really good at maintaining my weight.
Well, I decided to join the South Beach Diet. I keep thinking that I should just go back to fasting, but...I have to resist that urge because I know it isn't healthy. That could lead me down a very, very bad path. Check out my South Beach Diet Profile at http://www.southbeachdiet.com/profile/I_Will_Lose_It.

Siggggh well, I'm okay. My weight a few days ago was 154 lbs...:( God dammit. I'm so bothered by that. But, the other day, I was sick- which is awful, but I lost 3 lbs in a day! 151 lbs. That's alright...I'm going to have to keep fighting, though, to get under 150. I won't give up. I will keep trying. It's not fair that I can't lose weight as easily as other people but...oh well. I'll just keep trying. I can do it!

Well, yesterday went really great...Until I went out to dinner for my sisters birthday. I ate two salads, coffee, 1/2 a fried banana, 1/3 a slice of chocolate cake, and 3 bites of crem brûlée. That's okay, certainly much better than I could have done, but it still brought my calorie total to about 1300/1500 calories. :( oh well.

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Well, after about a week of "normal" eating last week, I over-ate a bit on thursday, friday, and saturday....I was hanging out with my friends, and we all know what a downfall friends can be. I'm certain that I gained a few lbs., but I refuse to weigh myself...not yet! Yesterday, I ate about 900/1000 calories, and I'm hoping for about 600 calories today. I want to make up for the mistakes I've made in the last few days, and I want to get past 150 lbs. It's been a real struggle for me. For some reason, my body just doesn't want to get below 150...either it just holds onto the weight like a bitch, or my appetite spikes. Ech! I hate it! Anyway, hopefully I can get below 150 lbs soon, if I stick to things. Wish me luck~

Ugh. Finished the day at 2,200 calories, exercised for an hour and 45 minutes on the stationary bike...that's alright...not unhealthy, I guess. Blegh. Doing a very low-cal day tomorrow though.


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Bleh

Well! Hello everybody!
Ech. 151 lbs. That's alright, but...It's the same exact weight I've been for awhile now. I can't seem to break through 151. Of course, it hasn't exactly helped that I didn't fast AT ALL this week! I just didn't feel much like it, so I've been eating 1200-1800 calories this week, plus 1 hour exercise...well, that certainly isn't unhealthy. But I do wish that I could have fasted for even one day. I'm sure I could've lost some weight. Anyway...I guess, I'll be fasting tomorrow then. :| My plan is 2,000 calories today, +1 hour of exercise on the crosstrainer, and +1 hour of exercise on the bike. That'll be more than a thousand calories burned...and tomorrow, a 0 calorie day consisting of coffee, water, and perhaps some diet soda if I need it. Wish me luck.

Well. I haven't been fasting very well recently. My last "fast" was 1200 calories, which is alright...but not a fast! I'm aiming for 500 calories today, but of course I'll probably end up at 800. :D It's hard for me to fast, of course, I'm human. I just have to keep going and hoping that I will break through 150 lbs....I can't wait for the day I'm 149 lbs.

Well, things sort of suck. For some reason, on friday, I got really depressed; and I binged. I don't know exactly how many calories I ate, but I estimated it at about 3000 calories. Three thousand calories! That's TWO days worth of food. Wow. That's sort of fucked up. The next day, I meant to fast down to 500 calories; but I felt still felt depressed... I ate three poptarts for breakfast and a banana. Ugh! I didn't eat for the rest of the day, so that was 800 calories.
Good news, however, is that my weight hasn't changed that much. I was 150.4 Friday morning, binged, was 151.4 yesterday morning, and was 150.4 this morning again. Whew. I'm starting my week off at 150 lbs, just as planned. So hopefully I can lose two pounds this week and be 148 next week! Keep your fingers crossed, ladies!